percaya atau tidak???

1) I love to sleep in musolla rather than being in class…(done it!!!)

2) I hate sitting wit others except people who do talk n acknwldge me..(sowie!!!)

3) I love SEAFOODs but I’m allergic to them..I just wanna live..pity plzzzz~

4) I love my parents soooo much..I wish I could be a better daughtr as I am alwys the worst..=[

5) I mizz my ex eventhou’ he dumped me..he didnt wanna to reconcile (ehemm2..as fwens jep) wit me..ughh~

6) I hate my ex BFF bcoz of she’s being a xxxx….(plzz be aware of it!!)

7) I love being wit my BFFs but I wish they could talk more so I can talk much2 more..ngee~

I lied to myself so dat I can be strong eventhou I felt empty inside..so lost again..huhuhu~

9) I’m drowning to be in love but I’m afraid I’ll be rejected again…PhilicPhobia..hahahaha!!! (PHOBIA 10= new movies by me..hehehe)

10) I wanna be wif sum1 but all he did was just “HINTS”..no real sign dat he likes..love..care.. bout me..I guess I’ll be wit my GFs a.k.a BFFs most my time..U girls rule!!!!!!

Tune in to –> Liyana Jasmay : Aku Jatuh Cinta (hahaha..lagu sedap tapi kn……..)

New Sem New Me ???

urgghh..I knoe itz too late..I’m alrdy in my 3rd week..huhuhu..I can’t focus in my lectures..I kept doin’ unnecssry stuff..taking stupid notes..mesejing my fwens..sleeping’ in the musolla..eating my breakpazz..owhh..I’m a bad..bad girl..huhuhu~

I guess the “kenduri” mania had taken over my body..mind..n soul?? ermmm..as sum of my fwens knoe..my result wasn’t dat superb but I still feel lucky..hee..I hve to try much harder..much focus..DETERMINATION!!!!!

Past weeks b4, I had experience a damned moment..argghhhh!!! I’m deeply truely mad about a fwen…haiyaaa!!! I nver thout such things would be hppning again when I am getting a lil old..huhuhu..I hope ALLAH will open n clear the bad hearts espcly my heart..it’s rotten now..eeeyuuuuuuuuu~

New MOON roXX

Lastly, dedicated to my family esp my parents..I LOVE U ALL eventhou I’m a very no gud daughtr n sister laaa..heee~

Tune in to –> Demi Lovato : Catch Me (layan lagu sayu + rancak tetiber!!!)

basi-keli my chu-tea iz er-bout’…

layout of my cuti datz alredy happen :

(1) A bus trip wit my fwens..I was seated at the front n at the top..wit Yun..wee..when we hve  our stop at Tmloh..Anas got lost alone (xde pon sesat..saje je..hee) n was left behind at the RnR..the bus had to reverse on the highway laa to pick him back..klako2..(sowie Anas!!!) n my journey started to fill wit sorrow as I realized bout “sumtg”..then we ate sweetcorn when we arrived n also McD..hee~

(2)  Went to umah Mien..best2..itz in the paya n utan sket..but i learnt a new city n road in my life..hee..thxx Mien for bringing diz lil girl to ur sweet home..n itz fun to talk wit Mak Mien..she’s nice n understdg..anwy Mien..U R a GooD driver..(cepat2 sket dpt license..hee~)

(3) Went to LowYat to buy Sal’s n Ummu’s new laptops..hehe..they were cluelezz at 1st but we managed to find ‘the one’ we’ve been looking for..n I’m sorry Sal..I nver realzd I hurt u so badly..huhuhu..wat a bad girl I am..hmm~

(4) Went to Bukit Antarabangsa..met my sis-in-law..INTRODUCING : Kak AMY..hehehe..she’s nice..we went shopping..ate McD (again!!!!)..chatting..sharing stories..wahh!! owh..I also met her husband a.k.a my eldest bro..we watchd Liverpool dat nyte tgther but I was too tired..so he watchd wit Kak Amy jer laa..wee~

(5) I mizz Kak Yani sooooo much n I decided to meet her..unfortuntly (hehehe..) on the same day she’s having a date wit Abg Akim a.k.a. my 2nd bro..hahahaha..I’ve been so fwenly wit his awek..hehehe..jangan mara yek..nti kna jual taw Abg Akim..hee..so SHE..I strezz again..SHE decided to meet me wit my bro..hehehe..itz so awesome to be the “FLY” a.k.a. “langau”..hahaha..so THREE of us went to eat lunch tgther n round2 near Pekeliling..they send me off back to Kuantan at 6.30pm..owhhh……….I wanna stay so bad~

(6) My SE phone started to make perangai kureng die..huhuhu..blank as whiteout..arghhh!! so I made a decision to repair it n do “sumtg” dat iz un-be-live-var-ble..huhhh??????

(7) My Raya Haji was fine as  alwys..I tried to enjoy the moment but nothing cheers me up except for Dini..so cute..I even slept wit her..hehehe..n I love PETAI as I alwys do..hee~

(8) Preparing for the “Menyambut Menantu” Kenduri…huhu..so tiring..so many time..energy..money needed..ughhh..Mak Andam alrdy decided for the pelamin n meja pengantin..Meeting had been done by the KRT for the kenduri..hmm..but I need my fwens to help me to clean the house n prepare the deco n goodies..I’ll try my best to help my mum..cian my mum..huhuhuhu..xnak kawin laa cani!!!!!!

(9) This weeknd..I’ll be in KL for my dad’s golf tournament..hehe..he’s playing golf AGAIN!! aishhh..I hve no mood actly..I need to b prepared for my new sem but I’m so not in the mood..ughhh..too much things..argghhh..wateva!!!

thr4..I just need to b prepard for a huge step in front of me..Go ANES!!!!!!!

Tune in to –> Lady Gaga : Bad Romance

tired in my mind

I’m drowned in my own world..I forgot where I shuld stand..when I shuld speak..why I shuld fight..owhh..itz so sad being me..sumtime I felt damned happy dat I lost my responsibilities..sumtime I did my job but I nver feel delighted doing it..I felt so apart..I can’t breathe..living so desperately for air..trying to gasp but I will nver feel enouff..owhh~

I’m not a good slave for my God.I’m not a good daughter to my parents.I’m not a good sister for my siblings.I’m not a good friend for my buddies.I’m not a good girlfren for my partner.I’m a “No Good”..never be a perfect person..I do mistakes..multiple times..trying to learn..but I never get it..I just wanna be but “ME” is truely wrong..do I hve time to change? Will other people bear wit me?? Will I manage to change?? owh~

Today I make another BIG MISTAKE n I’m dying in regret..but regret never change anytg..itz all written n all done..I dunt wanna be a monster but I am becoming 1..I’m tired of figuring out..I need to change but I just cant..ughh..bloody hell!!!!! I’ll never be good enouff..am I dat bad?? TOO BAD?? owhh..I just need sum1 to guide me out from diz darkness..but dat person had gone away..n it makes me mizzss him more..more than eva..owhh~

“Ya Allah, bagilah aku kekuatan untuk menjadi yang terbaik, baik untuk aku, sebagai hambaMU ,sebagai anak yang solehah, sebagai rakan kepada saudara-saudaraku”

Indulge myself wit –> Boys Like Girls : Two Is Better Than One (Feat Taylor Swift)

after a long break from “the net”…

Yup2..I’m back for a splash of story from my recent awakening life..

hehehe..

Well..tonite my lil house will be full of people attending for a meeting..it’s all bout the coming wedding day..huhu..everytg needs to b organized n perfect..ngeh5..rite now..the deco for the bedroom is done..the [pelamin..kat belah atas je pon]..the doorgifts..the umah penyanggah [huhh??]..n sum othr small stuffs..but d big kenduri will be dizcuss tonite..n hopefully everytg will b accordg to the plan..INSYAALLAH~

Basically today..I’m just hanging around..downloading [apehal plak ko yg kne dwld weyh..ko turun n muat gane plok nie haa??]..n cooking..the best part of all..hahaha..anwy I’m super excited to b back to meet my JANIN GENGZZzzzz..n my loved 1..hehehehe..guess who??? of coz laa Mr. Frodo..hahaha..(Min..ko jgn jelez lak!!) wee..so diz evening I’m goin’ to b a bit bz but I’m goin’ to paste sumtg HERE!!!!!

Tune in to –> Orianthi : According to U

Crossing the end and……..it’s raining man!!!!

xxxx

yaaaaAHOOOOOO!!!!

i Hve finished my last paper exactly at 12.15 in the noon…yezzz!!!

 

Dear Organic Chem,

Plzz let me pass n never take u again.

I repeat!

Let me pass or else…..

hahahaha~

True-lie by,

Anes Sheeda

Oke..done wit all my exams..I played wit the rain..[sedap2]..it’s like feeling sum smoothness on my cerebrum..hahaha..then back to my sweet always sweet home..hee..being wit my mum..n at the nite..I went out wit my “rumate-sss”..hee..ahhhh..BOWLING n KATAK-OKE..but I felt bad for my dearest Sal who hve to fight for her exam..chaiyokkk2!!!

hmm..lotzz to tell..but 1 thing 4 sure..I’m going to KL tmrow..n I miss “HIM”..wahh!!!(datz 2 thingggg laa!!!!) [Lame xnmpak..xsempat nk skodeng]..wateva..hope things do get better..lastly..EJEM DAA ABEZZ (translated:Exam dah habes)..wee~

Tune in to –> Kesha : Tick Tock

 

HaPPy BiRtHday To Me!!!

haha..ALHAMDULILLAH..I’m 19th already..ngee~

EGO…

Not a LEGO u can play with..

But an emotion or attitude dat makes me nuts now..

ughh..it’s not like i’m in geng kacang taw!!!

hmm..I knoe we hve our own high pride..air muka..self-importance..vanity..[apa2 laa kan]..hurmm..but we shuld b consider8 n toler8 toward others..other people hve feelings too..owhh..stand up 4 urselves laa..ishk2..

it’s not like I ha8 diz person or wat..itz juz I’m too tired of drama..I wish I’m “No-Drama-Adriana”..huhuhu..Imagine “No-Drama-Macam-Tak-Logik-Syaheeda”..huh?? plzz..dunt judge by ur own eyes..try to understand n face the facts laa!!!

oke..I’m done..I’m too tired..n 4 sure my B-Day is crawling..pressure reaching my mind..huishhh2..daa~

Tune in to –> Kelly Clarkson : Save You

My Eyes See “F.I.G.H.T”

My eyes do c things..understand..n feel the moment..sumtyme..Joy fills up the space..But Sadness enters the gap and creates the pain..the one who r burden wit this will be d heart..ughhh~

I hate when I’m in a “war”..I hate when hatred fill in inside my soul..I hate when I have to face the “FIGHT”

So let’s be inside my Wernicke’s area and explore FIGHT within my perspective….

1) LOUD & CLEAR FIGHT ~> Happens to me..where I [hempas] the door as loud as possible to show I’m mad like syait..hahahaha..too many people had suffered this..ishk2..another example is I shouted n cursed at the wind..ngehh3

2) HAND & LEG FIGHT ~> Diz is soooo dangerous..I’ve done this when I was just a naive lil girl..well..hopefully..hehehe..I guess a little [tampar] n [cubit2] don’t count..rite?? wawawawa~

3) MOUTH & EYES FIGHT ~> I alwys do this..until now..ngeh3..I used them as secret weapon to kill human population..hahahaha..My words r like machine gun n my eyes r like bazooka..[dasyat2!!!] People around me r the most suitable victims..wee~

4) TECHNO & MODERN FiGHT ~> Some words can’t be verbalize..some faces can’t be encountered..so techno is the best methodology..ngeh5..SMS..BLOG..FB..FS..MS..YM..etc..[xkn nk senarai seme2 kot!!!!] anway..this is quite chicken laa kn..itz like playing hide-n-seek..wawawa..but this fight can break my lil fragile heart..It can be paralyzed..huhuhu~

5) SILENT & DEATH FIGHT ~> Trust me..this fight can kill me..slowly they slice my heart..pieces by pieces..huhuhu..it’s like sum1 forget the diary they keep under the bed..” Write in me when u r in pain..when u r hepi..just leave me alone..but I knoe..u r already on ur way”..One side will suffer the soreness and one side will never realize until the other side bleed to death..huhuhu..

dat’s all..THX..(T-T0)

Tune in to –> Taio Cruz : Break Your Heart

SomeOne Alive…

Too much eating creates fats..

too much sleeping generates restlessness..

too much thinking constructs problems..

hmm..I can’t stop thinking..I just can’t..

Everyday I try to make myself rmmbr d reason “Y I’m still standing on this earth” “Wat 4??”…hmmm..I know..if I wasn’t given a chance to continue my life..I’ll be gone..kapushhh!!! But ALLAH S.W.T. gives me such a chance..there r people who died bcoz of perforated appndx..I’m so..so..so..so.. LUCKY to be alive..huhuhuhu~

Since the day I startd my kulyah days..I’ll alwys tell myself..”STUDY SMARTER & HARDER”..but when I came to the class..I started to lose my focus..scattering all out..glancing at my fwens..hearing sum tunes in my mind..owh2..don’t know wat shud I do..huhuhu..I tried to focus..but after 30 mins of each lectures..I’m DONE!!!

Fall into a pool of sweet lies in lifE

Fortunately..I was given a can-opener to open my brain faculty..[pinjam ayat Dr.Qamar sat]..hee..I got my results..they weren’t the TOPPERS laa..but oke laa..no fail..average n safe..huhuhu..I thout I will never be at liz a gewd pharmacist..not the best is oke for me..at liz a GEWD one..hehehe..so today I promised my mum n dad to study harder n of coz bijak-er..hee..despite the tv..the laptop..the download..the GG..the 90210..the VD..the MelP..hahaha..key laa..gotta go..my mum [daa menjeling2 ku bertentg daa]..hehehe..study wit my lovely snowing-machine = aircond..ngeh3~

Tune in to –> The Saturdays : Issues